I suppose its time for another installation in my own private pity party. Please excuse the dreary tone. I have been seeing this guy now for a couple months...I thought all was going well until facebook... I was playing on his facebook when I stumbled upon messages he sent to this other girl...either hours before or after we were "spending time together" I don't know why but it hurt me. Hurt me to the point of tears. Which pisses me off because I swore I would never cry over dumbshit again after I experienced real loss. Yet here I am physically in pain over someone who was just pretending to give a damn. I often wonder what is wrong with me just wish I could find the answer. I am always the one you fuck not the one you love...I try really hard to be the latter however, I am always thrown into that category.